I’m so over this conversation. Its redic. And it keeps coming up. I’d say, on average, once a month this conversation happens.
What conversation you ask? The future. The future that involves the one I love & myself. Where are we going? What are we doing? When will we get there?
I’d much rather ask those questions about a really fun vacation. But, alas, I’m not. I’m asking them about the one I love. When are we going to be ready to take the next step? After I finish school in April? After I graduate in December? A year after I finish school? When? And what is our next step?? I assume just living together. But we basically do that now. So is that really going to be our next step? And what are we doing?? Like I said, we basically live together. I do not stay at my house. I don’t. I haven’t in months. When do we admit to ourselves that we live together?
This conversation keeps coming up. And we don’t know what to do. We both realize that I will ultimately be the one who is ready long before he is. Long before. But how long? A month? 6 months? A year? 6 years??? We both realize that this is our issue. And we don’t know what to do about it. We both agree not to discuss it again until after I finish school. And then, it shows its ugly head again. One of us will make a comment in passing and it will make the other fester and stew and worry. And then we’ll just shut down. We just don’t know what to do. And then the other feels terrible for a couple days. It’s a vicious cycle.
Seriously, if you have any advise on how to get past this, please, pass it along. We need some tips. Because just saying “We won’t talk about this until ______ date” – it ain’t working for us, folks!